3/31/09 my princess

i swear she was like my best friend, and i cared so much for her. idk y things messed up but it did , i had feelings about her that i didnt feel for any1 else// i did love maybe 2 other gurls my whole life but this was a diff love , i loved talking to her kuz she was the only 1 that new exactly wat i was feeling . i made her laugh and i loved the way she laughed .. but i messed up and im sorry for that .. even tho we dont talk and we dont hang out she will always b 1 of my best memories nno mater wat ppl said about her i no i said somethings to her that i might of said to other gurls but i did mean them .. it wasnt a game ,.. i would love for things to go back the way they used to b because i was in my own world talking to her.. i kould read the letters everyday and be happy and sad at the same time.. if she only really knew how i really felt when i read them , ima change man .. i didnt change much but i changed enough to b a great friend even if we were not ment to b i would of thought we'd stay friends but i guess all good things kome to an end. but why right now? and if shes reading this i didnt wite this so u kould read it and by some miricle want me back , i wrote this because i dont kare wat any gurl thinks i wrote this because sometimes u have to write wat u feel and sometimes i feel better about this.. all i really wanted was for u to b my best friend and to kare and love me for who i am , i dont kno how all this mix up with other ppl got into the situation but what i do no is that when u kare about someone and u make promises u should keep them